+ going the baaahh-lee way +

OK, I admit I've been avoiding this subject. It's not because the negotiation stop or cancelled, just some personal reasons. So, negotiation is closed. Resulting that.......... yes, u guessed it, I'm moving to Bali!!

Find it a bit strange seeing how things are moving that way without I expect it. Work wise they agreed to adjust the two points I asked, so no more excuses for me turning down their offer. Once I confirm my acceptance there’s no turning back. In addition to that a couple of friends asked if I wanna go to bali in the near future. The scheduling will be slightly different, yet not conflicting and coincidently (?) I already make plans to be there (if my leave request get approved).

Isn't this exciting??!!

Uhhmm.... I honestly don’t know how to answer that. There's a mixed feelings.
Exciting to move and play adult living by my own and the rest of it, but anticipating all the moving I've to do it doesn’t look that exciting anymore. Maybe I'm just too lazy hehee..

Then the endless "what ifs"......
What if I don't like the work, the people, the boss?
What if I feel alone and homesick?
What if I don't like where I live?
What if it's too late for me to realize that vacationing in bali is different with living there?
What if . . . . .
[the questions go on & on & on]

Whoa!! Having those thoughts rolling around my head day and night (literally!) is much easier than writing them down and seeing that I worry too much! Yeah, that’s one reason why I've been delaying in writing this. Usually after the worrying and anxiety passed I will feel much better and can start listing down the more important issues, that is what to be prepared. One step at a time, now I need to finish work in current office, which according to our annual schedule will have audit very soon.